Thursday, November 26, 2009

Two Zero Zero Nine

Oh. what a year it has been for me and I'm sure a hell of a lot of other people will agree.

For the past week i have never laughed and smiled so much and can honestly say i have found my self.

For years Ive been switching from trend to trend trying to find my place in the world, and now i have, and I'm happy finally happy.

I have lost so much, jobs, money, confidence, friends, family everything, but i gave gained more of what I've lost back, and i have truly never been happier.

I've done mistakes, and degraded my self to such a disgust, but all i can say to my self is to never dwell on what you've done, but to grow from it and learn and become so much wiser.

I have lost a few of my best friends, one in particular and there really isn't a day i don't think of her and wonder what shes been doing with her self.

But with that i know i cant take back what happened or fix things to how it was, but i know we are both happy with the decision that was made.

I have made so many new friends, and I'm so comfortable around them, to my old friends yous may say i have changed, but think honestly have yous ever seen me so happy?

I don't want my old friends to feel they have been replaced, i still talk, come to shows and make an effort to see yous, I will ALWAYS love and adore yous, no matter what.

But out of all this i have made some of the greatest new friends, as well as the old i know I'm going to grow old around them and continue doing what Ive always been doing.

No regrets, No more tears, two thousand and ten, I'm ready.